It's been a long time since I've updated this thing, it's probably for the better too....but right now, I have so much going on I just couldn't help but turn to this thing that I've had for so long.
My life is falling apart at the seams, right before my eyes, and I have no clue what to do about it.
I never thought soooo many things could change in a month, but everything has.
I'm so confused, exhausted, blah about life, myself, and everything right now. I've never felt so lost in my entire life, and that's hard to believe because there have been so many different times when I've been lost.
I've been so blind and naive for the past year and while I thought that I was finally starting to make everything better, I've realized that I was only making things worse for myself.
I really don't care how this comes off, but right now it's time for me to be extremely selfish and think about everything that I need to be doing for myself. This is the time when I'm having to make some really big life changing decisions and for once I have no idea what I'm suppose to do. Why does it always happen like that? Whenever you really need to know and understand what the hell you're doing, you have no idea.
Oh well, things can't get any worse, at least I hope they can't. So hopefully they'll start getting better.